Ohh Friend !!! I miss you so much...

It was the time when teacher made me to sit with someone else because I was late,
Made me so restless that I got relief only after she asked me to go back n sit with you again.
You also felt the same pain and cried with me,
But what happened now that you don't even bother to ask where I am?

It was the time when I never allowed anyone else to come near you,
They called me arrogant and I never cared.
All I wanted was to be with you, forgetting the rest of the world in those meaningless talks,
But what has happened now that you can't even understand my meaningful words?

It was the time when we shared everything with each other,
Lunch and pencils, secrets and tears.
Talking endlessly over phone even after spending a whole day in classroom,
But what has happened now that we always fall short of words when we talk?

It was the time when none of us bothered who called whom last time,
All we cared for was that we love each other.
We knew that and none of us asked for a proof,
But what has happened now that uncertainty has overpowered our bond?

It was the time when no one dared to fight with you,
We were the conquerors of the world.
We ruled , we enjoyed every moment,
But what has happened now that you became judgmental when someone said something against me?

It was the time when you said that we would never be apart,
And I was always silent.
You always ensured me that nothing can go wrong ever,
But what has happened now that nothing is working to make things better between us?

Whose fault it was? It is just we care for now.
Ohh, I miss those days when such devilish thoughts never dared to enter our minds.
Why should I make the first move? Never was an issue between us.
Ohh, I miss that day when you asked me to come and sit near you and I was overjoyed.

Ohh friend I miss you so much,
But what I miss even more is myself.
Yes, I miss myself when I never even cared to think that I was happy or not,
Unlike now, when I have to look for a reason to smile.

Was that all ???

With not much hopes, I entered the auditorium. Tried my level best to make myself comfortable in the crowd of all ladies, oops girls at that time! :-| Yeah, it was "The Orientation Day" !!! I still can not understand why they call it by that name :-\ . Hell!!! How will I spend 4 years here??? But there was no escape to that. Could not even complain to anyone, after all they all must be thinking the same. Anyways, I expected them to serve us good snacks that day, least that I could expect but I was disappointed again. :-(

Ohk, finally our Chairman's lecture got over which I thought no one bothered to listen but yeah I clapped for sure. But I was wrong. It was not over yet. :-\ Everyone sitting near by stared me as if they were taking notes of his lecture and I disturbed them. Then proudly he started describing the college's infrastructure, and again all I wanted was a chilled Fanta. Things worsened when we were taken to show the college's library , workshop etc etc. After spending such a beautiful time in Hindu's library :-P , visiting this college's library was like an insult to what I had the impression of a library earlier. No reserved section??? :-o I thought all colleges have it.

Anyways, I had to move on. Then we were taken to a seminar hall , which was nothing but a classroom having a projector , a screen and space enough to accommodate 60*3 girls (at least it seemed so at the first look). Then started the speech of our Principal. She introduced all teachers after enough appreciation of ex-students and faculty. Only hope at that time was to have at least some descent and tolerable lecturers unlike Hindu :-P . And I was not disappointed this time ;-). I never fell for any teacher , not this time too but we poor girls wanted to discuss something, so let it be this way only :-\ .

Now I was upgraded from a mechanical student to a Computer Science student. Felt very proud at that time, can't feel the same presently though. Anyways, so I was quite happy. :-) Used to crack wackiest jokes all the time. Hello??? Surprisingly I started enjoying here. :-D Never thought that being in a girls' college can be this much fun also. Felt like the princess of my own world. So very fun loving friends , not those gossip type behenjis. Well everything was just perfect at that time. Then with time, our group reached the count of 16 members but by that time , I was no more an entertainer. Somehow missed my close friends in that huge group. And I started losing interest in college also. Attendance was not a big deal until and unless you want 5/5 in the internal assessment and I really never bothered about them, so I found my home more peaceful and educating :-P than any other place. My absence from classes was interpreted as the result of my even more important studies that I was doing at home. Well, I have been misinterpreted most of the times , so no worries about that. 8-)

Besides all this, we went on a trip to South India. It was a memorable trip, for various reasons of course :-P. Wonder la was great. :-D Hmm... let s not get into other not much pleasant incidents ( look, I am not saying the unpleasant ones :-P ) .

All my friends outside college used to feel pity for me for studying in a girls' college and I always kept on reminding them that there are a number of guys of other courses in our campus but seriously, I never bothered to have a look around. Reason??? I was just concerned about my task of that day in college and return back home as soon as possible always. I had visited and enjoyed so many fests by that time that I didn't have any more patience left to tolerate my own college's fest until and unless I was coordinating some event. :-| Obviously, I was not at all interested in the fash p s where people wore all such unwearable clothes , intolerable attitude and oily bodies... yukk!!! And dancing in the sun on stupid tracks was not my type of fun :-P. But yeah, I loved it when we rocked the floor one winter evening during Mecca, sweating like hell and still, there was no stopping to us. :-D Also, in both the freshers' parties etc etc... :-D

So, if you forgot that, then it s your fault, not that I never enjoyed or I don't know what enjoyment is!!! Our definitions of enjoyment may also differ!!!

Now Farewell party is also over and I wont say much about it except that we got some very good pics that day and had a samosa, sandwich and laddu with a glass of Fanta. It s not that that I wont miss my college but somehow, I am feeling that it is not over yet. I ll be going to attend one or two classes in the next semester as well like I did in the last semester :-P.
When and what is going to happen that ll really make me realize that it has "actually got over"?
Not even the constant taunts of everyone about "what am I doing now" working at all!!! :-|
Can someone get me a good job??? :-P
That can help for sure. :-|